These are two words that so many people have a hard time saying, and sometimes people say it too many times that it loses meaning. Today, let me humble you all with my sincerest apologies.
I'm sorry that I've become less than complacent around these parts over the past year. I've been preoccupied with trying to make this site look like the quality webpage I know it is, and yet, it feels so neglected. There's no excuses from me on the chronic lateness of things promised. This sickening need to be pitch perfect instead of just throwing everything to the windis an illness I have to get over.
I'm sorry that I have been spending a lot more time over at Thoughtnami (the site) and BFMC than The X Bridge. Thoughtnami was a side-project of The X Bridge (heck, in the original title graphic, it said The X Bridge Presents Thoughtnami), and it's a lot of fun. I've written more original content there than I have for TXB, and that's going to change. I'm currently transitioning all of those articles to The X Bridge even as you're reading this. I made BFMC because I've grown tired of seeing Black comic creators and creations get treated like garbage by the mainstream publishers and the comics press. It's part of my culture, and as Phil LaMarr once said, I'm a minority within a minority, and I've learned that there are others just like me. That community has made me feel welcome and appreciated. Speaking of communities . . .
I'm sorry that I haven't been a stronger Toonami fighter. It's not that I don't love Toonami. I really do. The X Bridge wouldn't have existed if it wasn't created 15 years ago as one of the few Toonami sites online. And I felt that I wasn't needed any more. In a way, I still don't think I have a place in this modern Toonami faithful movement aside from being an elder statesman or leader emeritus. But maybe, just maybe, I've been running away from Toonami because I didn't want my site to be known as "that old Toonami site," especially in wider net that has podcasts, ratings reports, and other things happening for it. Nobody said they wanted me here, and I even stepped away from that part of my site's history. It would be best if I acknowledged that part of my site's 15-year legacy around these parts in some form.
I'm sorry that I'm not as angry as I used to be. That's part of growing up. I've grown a lot. It's a shame that a lot of people haven't. There's this one guy who has kept this moronic grudge for over a decade against me and anybody I associated myself with after I and my friends disassociated with him largely because he was pretending to represent us in various media outlets and published some inappropriate material and blamed it all on a recent death in his family when he got caught. I didn't go after anybody's family, but he has went after mine. Over the years, he has harassed me, the people who run my site's host, and now he's taken aim at my girlfriend, using vulgar dialogue to describe her and calling me a "breeder" because I'm talking about her so much. I will not apologize for showing affections to my girlfriend publicly. I will not apologize for defending my site's host. And now he's trying to steal the "Toonami Inner Circle" name online, once again acting like he represents me and my friends. To the guy who made these statements against me, my loved ones, my family, my friends, I won't mention your name here. I don't want to give your miniscule, droning voice or site the hits. I'm not going to make you famous, but I know where you are, and we'll be in touch. You've done a very dangerous thing.
You made me angry. Expect turbulence.
And I'm sorry you all had to deal with that interruption.
I know I haven't done a great job lately, and I'm sorry for that. I know what I want The X Bridge to be, and in the end, if it's not, there's no point of doing it. I know the site isn't a blip on anybody's radar these days, but I hope in the next year or so, it'll be back its former "glory," or even better than that. I'm doing this by myself largely because I can't afford to pay anybody to help me. I'm not ready to burn this bridge I created. Not by a long shot.
There will be changes here at The X Bridge. Watch this space and Thoughtnami for details. And keep creating.
- Jeff Harris, June 4, 2013